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Sorry

I want to talk about the words… Love means never having to say you’re sorry. It’s from the movie Love Story. I have never seen this movie. But I’ve thought a lot about the words… In all of my relationships, I’m always saying sorry. Antonio is always saying sorry. Dan uses apologies like a littleContinue reading “Sorry”

Good Morning

There are people I know who wake up without alarms. Dan, Antonio, my mother, my mother in law… these people all wake up without any outside help. Granted, I woke up Antonio this morning by accidentally dropping the cat on him, but USUALLY he wakes up without my help. For me, waking up is aContinue reading “Good Morning”

Funktion

Depression is such a weird trick. It’s almost like someone put a spell on you. I find myself staring at the table while life whirls around me. In the midst of my trance, the cat will bite my leg, Antonio will try and get me to look up, Dan will ask for avocado toast… AndContinue reading “Funktion”

Worthy

Worthy is such a loaded word. It has so much power. I can tell myself that in my imperfection, I am worthy, but my flaws gnaw at my mind. I can’t help but consider every action or inaction that makes me unworthy whenever anything bad happens to me or my family. One positive thing aboutContinue reading “Worthy”

Childhood Diabetes Today

In the picture above, you can see Dan on the first day of school, standing next to his dad, posing for a picture with his trusty diabetes kit hanging from his shoulder. He goes everywhere with it. Some of you know how this works, many of you don’t. Back in April this year, Dan wasContinue reading “Childhood Diabetes Today”

Cheetos

Storytime. Once upon a time a little boy by the name of Stan (names have been changed to protect the guilty) got in trouble at school. He felt badly about it. But Stan had a plan. Stan was a man with a plan. Stan asked his naive parents if he could walk to school onContinue reading “Cheetos”

Sledding

When I was in the 4th grade, we lived in a red and white split level house in Centerville, Utah. We had the best yard for sledding. Ever. The winter of 1987-88 brought some amazing snowstorms! My Aunt Marylou gave me some photos from that winter. We lived in that house for only a fewContinue reading “Sledding”

Naked

Last night after work, I came upstairs, said a brief hello to my family, then went directly into my room where I removed all of my clothing and slid in between my pale pink sheets. I didn’t exactly cut myself off from the world, I just wanted to be naked and covered only by softContinue reading “Naked”

Labor Pains

Right now I’m working through some difficult emotional pain. Someone I love very much has decided that she doesn’t want me to be a part of her life. I don’t know how long the distance will last. I’m sure her intention is forever, but time has a way of healing wounds. I think the thingContinue reading “Labor Pains”

Energy

Today was one of those craptacular days. Antonio is in between jobs, so he promised me that I could enjoy sleeping in this morning, while he took care of the morning routine. Instead, we woke up to a customer screaming in the facility. Between the two of us, we managed to call the police, dealContinue reading “Energy”