depression – The Daily Observations of Genesis Eve Garcia

Accidental Adult

I am so happy right now. I am giddy. I am gleeful. I haven’t been feeling well for about a week. Aches, pains, lots of time in the bathroom. (This isn’t the happy part.) I decided to be an adult and call the nurse at my doctor’s office and see if I could get testedContinue reading “Accidental Adult”

100 Seconds In Motion

I’ve had a few important conversations with important people (to me) about mental illness this week. During one of the discussions, a friend asked me, “What advice would you share with someone struggling with depression?” I responded with something rambling and not so eloquent, and then I landed on a maxim I’ve been sharing forContinue reading “100 Seconds In Motion”

What Does It Mean To Feel Good?

Thursday. I went to therapy today. I feel good. I feel good BECAUSE of therapy. I felt myself healing in the sessions, and in the time between sessions. Today was odd because I babbled on about one topic after another. The therapist laughed with me and we just danced from one topic to the other.Continue reading “What Does It Mean To Feel Good?”

Sorry

I want to talk about the words… Love means never having to say you’re sorry. It’s from the movie Love Story. I have never seen this movie. But I’ve thought a lot about the words… In all of my relationships, I’m always saying sorry. Antonio is always saying sorry. Dan uses apologies like a littleContinue reading “Sorry”

Good Morning

There are people I know who wake up without alarms. Dan, Antonio, my mother, my mother in law… these people all wake up without any outside help. Granted, I woke up Antonio this morning by accidentally dropping the cat on him, but USUALLY he wakes up without my help. For me, waking up is aContinue reading “Good Morning”

Funktion

Depression is such a weird trick. It’s almost like someone put a spell on you. I find myself staring at the table while life whirls around me. In the midst of my trance, the cat will bite my leg, Antonio will try and get me to look up, Dan will ask for avocado toast… AndContinue reading “Funktion”

Naked

Last night after work, I came upstairs, said a brief hello to my family, then went directly into my room where I removed all of my clothing and slid in between my pale pink sheets. I didn’t exactly cut myself off from the world, I just wanted to be naked and covered only by softContinue reading “Naked”