Help me out friends

I’m currently lost. I have no idea where I am or where I’m going.

But I feel very strongly that I’m in the right place for me. For some reason, God has decided that I need to have certain experiences and learn certain lessons. I feel myself evolving and changing as a result of this humbling experience.

I make a lot of mistakes. I have so many things that I need to change and solve about myself. But I’m narrowing down my priorities.

No matter how lost I may be–or what problems in my life I haven’t solved–I will strive every day to:

1) Help someone to feel God’s love.
2) I will work hard everyday at whatever I am doing.
3) I will take time out for friends and loved ones, regardless of other “priorities”.
4) I will strive to be honest with myself.
5) I will treat myself with respect and demand that others treat me with the same respect.

As long as I can remember these values everyday, I can forgive other mistakes.

This is just another page in my effort to turn the corner.

I’ve been talking a lot with Chris lately. I know, he hurt me. I could never explain the whole story, but please know I’m taking great care to protect my heart. I am striving to honestly identify and respect my own needs. But without going into great detail, please know that he is a good man. And I understand him. I believe that we are friends for a reason. And I’m very much at peace with just being his friend right now.

Please pray for him. He’s such a good person and he’s facing so many daily trials that I know are just getting to him. I can’t make him take care of himself. That’s one of the problems that I have with him–if he can’t care for himself–how can I ever trust that he will take time out to care for me–but he spends every day caring for his two special needs children. Every moment he isn’t working, he is with them. And right now, he has horrible gout and migraines. I know he’s not going to be happy about me sharing his personal drama–but he’ll get over it. He needs your prayers.

Thanks friends. You are wonderful!